Thursday, December 24, 2009


SOME OF THE BEST MEETINGS are on the holiday!!!! Great fun, good food! No reason to risk H.A.L.T. = relapse. (hungry? angry? lonely? tired? = GO TO A MEETING NOW!)


Merry Christmas! This is the day we remember God had to send a Savior for us because of the way we kept screwing up! I am grateful to be forgiven today! The pain and wreckage of my past is behind me now and I have a choice to make new traditions for the rest of my life. Well, the kind the result in peace and grace and hope and ones that can help me be reasonably happy.
Enjoy:

Friday, October 16, 2009



Enter by the narrow path for wide is the road and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go by that way. Because the way is narrow and the path is difficult which leads to LIFE few are they who find it.





God never gives us more than we can handle.......

Sunday, September 13, 2009


Accepting Responsibility for our actions, making a list of all we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.....in itself can be very scary. This comes with the package and decision to turn our lives and will over to the care of God. No matter what, we know that with HIS power to see us through, we are gonna be OK. Better yet we can have rest in knowing we are and have been Forgiven! Selah.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Don't Worry! Why worry if you pray and why pray if you worry?
And this we know for sure:
Everything is going to work out or everything will work out!
Because God can take ALL things and work them together for good for those who are in Christ Jesus and have surrendered to his will.
And that's all we know!
I shall be God's little hand maiden,
Acceptance with Joy!


Friday, July 10, 2009

So who did you inherit those beautiful brown eyes from? Or are they BLUE? Or that nose? Or is it THIQ?
THIQ? = Tetrahyroisoquinoline. In a jist of a story, there is a recent scientific proven fact why some in the family have inherited the addiction gene and some have NOT! Basically, either you have it or you don't! Trouble is, the only thing that activates this inherited chemical THIQ component into full blown alcoholism or your drug of choice addiction is a one time consumption of you take your pick: Alcohol!


If you have this gene it explains why some people can drink sensibly and why some CANNOT and are powerless over alcohol or their drug of choice. It is the difference between the "addict" and the "normie". For some folks, it is just not their fault they are like this. But it is their responsibilty to grasp their own sobriety. They are the ones that can never touch it. Makes so much sense really. So no matter what, as Father Martin says, we must urge our addict into what works. A 12 Step Recovery and/or treatment of SOBRIETY !! This is why the struggling loving family member of the addict can say, "I didn't cause it, I can't control it, and I can't cure it!" No matter how hard we try! What this gives the family member, is a respect for the nature of the disease. We can respond with love and firm boundaries NOT to enable. Instead with our tools in place we can lovingly contribute to the person to hit their own bottom to choose LIFE and HELP via treatment. Thank goodness for Ala-Non and its community of support for the frustrated and exasperated family members of the alcoholic! It's going to be OK! ............

Nothing going to break hearts more than seeing the one you love using and determined to be "OUT THERE"




I can't, but HE can, so I think I'll let HIM..... handle it! And that is all I know.
Thanks for letting me share!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

When I need it most, I admit my life has become unmanageable. There comes a time when I must admit I am powerless over something and that it is destroying lives, mainly my own. I admit and I surrender to a HIGHER POWER who has the power to do for me what I am unable to do for myself, and that is restore my life to sanity.Here is a song that puts a focus on my idea of a change: Whatever You're Doing (Something Heavenly) - Sanctus Real

Yes, so then there is a surrender of my life and will to my Higher Power and trust that someone else is really in charge. In my case I believe the Creator of the Universe, GOD himself ought to be able to handle the likes of me. I need that, someone who can see the beginning and end all at once and who won't fall for my tricky tricks!
Sure, I must decide to make this journey on a path all by myself but what I don't know today is that there is a community of support to keep me company on my new path of sobriety for tomorrow!
How about this, take this test and see if you want to come with me on this journey of new life....
http://www.whitesidemanor.com/self_evaluation.htm
OKC ya!



Friday, April 10, 2009

In Memory: ANAHEIM, Calif. (April 9) - Los Angeles Angels pitcher Nick Adenhart and two others were killed by a suspected drunk driver Thursday,


Ever heard the term: Quit shooting yourself in the foot?
Often the bystanders who watch the insanity of addiction unfold upon those they love just wish they'd have the sense to put the gun down and "stop shooting your foot if you don't like the consequences! At least don't whine about foot pain and blame others for your own doing!"

It can be so hard to bare the watching of someone in self destruct and everyone can see the "hand writing on the wall" but the addict!


It is by the grace of God our troubles catch up to us so we can face the painful reality of consequences for our own choices. Owning up to the bad choices we have made and surrendering to God to be our sole HELP in time of trouble is our only hope for a miracle of true recovery. Hopefully after many prayers by those who love and care about us we chose surrender and reach out for recovery before we harm our self or others.


The Angel's pitcher who just lost his life and 2 others at the foolish decision of a young kid who chose to drive while under the influence. He had already lost his license to alcohol abuse and now he will feel the pain of killing 3 innocent people because he was a dumbass again. Let's choose life, God and 12 step recovery while we can before the bad thing happens.


It is already bad enough to hurt everyone else around us by our addiction but it will be so quickly forgiven and forgotten as we make the choice for life and sober living today. There is hope. God is with us to lead us out no matter how deep we are in when we finally turn to him. He has the power to help us recover when we clearly do not!
Call that number for AA or NA today! It is free! It works if you work it!

Thursday, March 05, 2009


Insanity=doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result!
How many times do we do this kind of thing? Climbing into the vehicle empowered by alcohol thinking we are the best driver in the WORLD. How many DUI's or crashes will it take to learn that the poison that consumes us is a killer to us or other's? Maybe it's not alcohol you are powerless over. Is it money? How many overdraft charges or insufficient funds letters per month or year will it take to enlighten us to the fact there is a problem with the way we do business? Do we think the ATM is a slot machine? Do we stick our head in the sand writing checks we hope will be OK?
12 step recovery works if you work it. It meets the need with a miracle with whatever the venue is that has made our lives unmanageable! As we turn our lives and will over to HIM He can restore us to sanity so we can be a responsible, functioning member of society doing good to those we cross paths with! There is HOPE!

Sunday, January 18, 2009


God is patient, God is kind and it's by the grace of God we fall into our own misery.
This is when there is hope, recovery will work. When we run out of our own ideas of how to get straightened out! We are now willing to yield to His plan for healing...

God can see the forest through the trees. As we yield to His will for us, He often unfolds the way we never knew was there at the moment we ponder surrender.....